What Makes It Difficult

First it was quiet as his breathing evened out
Then there was an awareness of this lack of tension
Somewhere hard to pinpoint
But his shoulders felt broader
His chest cavity felt deeper
His inhalations drew in longer, slower, calmer
Then the walls surrounding the cavity came down gently
Then all membranes dissolved
And there was a vastness
Not emptiness - full, open, synchrony
His heart was steady thunder
Strong, true and warm
This feeling of truth
Radiance

He waited for that feeling the night before last
After it was over, he looked for it
His shoulders had come down a little
But not the rest of it